anonymity.

Whispers

naked.
tell me, what do you see?
i see lies, deception, and manipulation.

The Writer

the ironic water-bearer.
the gem. the life.
the one and only... miss A.

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anonymity for life.

- the wishlist -
the lottery
the historical trip
a big king size bed
a great guy and ...
an accidental new love.

>br>

of love.

Monday, February 14, 2011 @ 9:02 PM

You are just like me.

Seeing my friend depressed over her boyfriend, it reminded me of him. When she told me her story, I can't help but see the similarity. No, I'm not talking about you Ally. It's another friend. Yesterday, her v-day was a sad one. When she told me she didn't really have anything to talk to her boyfie, like how hard it is for her to cook up a convo, I thought of him as well. They're so alike, in certain ways. The boy's confused. So did mine. Boys are dumb. They always give you the 'i'm confused' reason just because they can't figure out a better thing to say. Well, if you're confused, I'm even more confused!

In the past, when mine was confused, I got confused too. But I still hold this torch and waited for him. And when he truly became mine, I grow with all the bullshits he put me through. I've seen things. And I've been drunk. But now I'm sober.

If ever another boy hop along and tell me that he's confused whether or not to be with me, I'm gonna tell him this right at his face, "If you're confused, I'll tell you stop being confused anymore coz you no longer have the reason to be confused about. Astalarista babeh"

OKay. Maybe not the astalarista babeh part. Maybe I'll just say a cold goodbye, friend.

I've matured loads. I'm happy that I've grown out of the 'I love you and will wait for you, I don't care about the other bitches I'll step them down just to get you.' period. Now, I'm more subtle and I'm like...

... if you truly like me the way I am, then I'll try my best to treat you the sweetest way possible.

... if you do not like me the way I am, then I'm not gonna stick around and tolerate the mental torture anymore and you better get lost and out of my sight.

I'm not lesbo. I won't turn lesbo although IMHO, all boys are dumb. I'm still very much attracted to the opposite sex, especially JACOB from New Mooon (I mean who wouldn't? look at those abs. dammn.). I'm still very much available for those nice single souls (I dont consider attached souls at all, coz no, I don't steal boyfriends.) out there, if there's any left.

*look left
*look right
*look far ahead

=(

nope. not a single one in sight. pffft~

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